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So its probably about time i made another entry 
The last week has been a bit mental to be honest 
Wendesday was Panic at the disco, The Academy Is.. & Cobra Starship 
Suprisingly i had quite alot of fun mostly dancing and singing along.
Having a laugh although there were rather alot of kiddies there, never the less i had fun.
I cant quite get over girls screamind at Panic's van as they arrived.
I never understood why people do that, its rediculous but that aside it was good and i enjoyed Panic themselves which i was suprised about as I mainly went for TAI... and Cobra to begin with.

So that was wednesday then on thursday night i went to Snitch to see Gun For Glory which was great, i had so much fun.
Oddly enough the cheesy pop music went down well with Snitch goers.
Snuggling on the couch in the band room was nice too :)
Not that i have a soft spot for anyone or anything;)
Too bad none of us took any pictures i wish we had now.
I think i danced so much my legs almost dropped off.
Ah im thinking a trip to Sydney when i get back to see Guns is in order.
I shall miss a fare few people while im gone.

I should really make more effort to write on here.
Quite alot hads happened sinse i last wrote not to mention the dates changed for me going back to england.
So im not going back until September now wich is about eight weeks away so im rather excited.
I cannot beleive i already have a number of gigs lined up to bad i dont seem to be getting that many hours at work I wish they'd give me more.
Anyway, so i went to the sunshine coast the other weekend and boy was that a trip n a half.
When we eventually got there which seemed like forever, we didnt have long to get ready so we downed a bottle of vodka in the space of 30 mins, finally got ready and ventured to the sol bar which took us a while because we kept stopping and talking to randoms oh the joy of being drunk.
I think the guys were genuinly suprised to see us there i dont think they quite beleived we were going.
But it was good they came back to our room and drank with us, until we all got kicked out and then we crashed at pauls place.
haha man we had some laughs.
I will miss the drawcard guys when i go back to england maybe i can pack them in my luggage and take them with me it could work maybe.... not sure how customs would react though.
Hmm what else?
Ah yes I still need to get ffaf tickets for later this year i will get them tonight acctually.
I hope i can afford to do the dates i want to do.
I personally think i should kidnap those welshies and have them for myself greedy? no never...
Im not sure mums so happy for me about going back though to be honest she seems to avoid talking about it with me, and just goes yeah i know, hmmm, it was inevidible i would eventually go back but i guess she didnt want to beleive it almost.
I dont know I should stop typing now and get food maybe...

 A while sinse i made an entry so i thought it was about time i did.
Ive been trying to keep myself busy and refraining myself from going out and spending money.
It looks like I shall be going back to england july time now.
I would like to land in london exactly three years after i left it sounds pretty cheesy i realise this but i dont know it would be nice i suppose.
I cant beleive bullet for my valantine, atreyu and avenged sevenfold are all playing together in may that will be awsome i have to go to that as it will probably be my last concert/gig here.
I keep meaning to pop into the travel agent to see jemma but havnt yet i shall do it tomorrow once i have collected my pay i think.
so all's good.
i had the oddest dream last night, it was good but slightly strange ah well who knows, i certainly dont.

I cannot beleive im twenty next month its pretty scary really not being a teenager and all.
I still have no plans for my birthday probably wont do anything at all I cannot be bothered with it.
eh im finished rambling maybe i should only make entrys when i have something decent to say.

well its my first entry for this year.. and im so glad to say im going home this year.
Alots happened sinse i last wrote in here.
he is now pretty much out of my life so much shit went on there that was bad.
& well he did hurt me to be honest..now were just friends i suppose.
as stupid as it sounds it would be a shame if we couldnt be friends after everything.
seeing you at the coast really did make me realise there isnt anything there for me anymore.
Anyway moving along slightly...
Last year was a whilwind.. i did so much and it was gone in a flash i still cant beleive i saw christina aguilera in concert for the second time of my life and just how close i was.
It was mind blowing and still seems surreal i may never be that close again and i am extremely greatful for seeing her that close, i was so touched i cried when she started thanking her fans and talking about her journey.
Another great moment of 07 was the night of the ffaf brisbane show going out after the show drinking with them, aswell as dopamine and bayside.
I still laugh when i think about the big loo roll inccodent, and vanessa walking in the mens loos to get loo roll and darran being in there taking a slash hahaha!
then crashing at dopamines place later on in the night, man ill be telling people about that night for years to come.
so much happened and i hope this year will be more amazing i know it will as ill be seeing people i havnt seen in three years and i honestly cannot wait.

that is all.
xx

Forgive me if i skip out alot of this as im doing this from memory..
Right so where do i start hmm.
So i managed to get up around 10:30 but then went to sleep again for half hour because id got back rasonably late from Sydney the night before where i brought two big boxes of Krispy Kremes for myself & Rebelica to eat in the que.
I eventually got dressed and made my way to the train station where i luckily caught the same train as Rebelica.
Munched on a couple of dohnuts on the train, then arrived in the valley and made our way to the tivoli suprisingly there were more people there this time we went the same time last year and there werent many people there at all but we still managed to get near the front.
Some people in the que were slightly bitchy and mean, which was a bit pathetic, its not like no one will come along and shove them off the barrier anyway.
& the stupid blonde woman that works at the tovoli blaitenly was on a power trip.
eurgh walking round the back as the band arrived to say hello and she come out 'GET OUT RIGHT NOW'
people were so much nicer last year they let us sit out the back.
anyway i have cool pictures of us advertising krispy kremes .
 

 

So Yesturday/Last night i went to see Bullet for my Valantine in the Valley at the Arena, I didnt go in as early as i thought i might due to rain, i couldnt be bothered.
Never the less i still got there reasonably early ventured into te city and got starbucks and some cookies before venturing into the Valley.
I got there and there was a reasonable size que already I started walking up the que and who should i see but Adam and Cassie, so i gently kicked adam and he thought i was some sort of emo basher until he realised it was me.
Lol i am an emo basher adam, haha its just youre my friend.
Anyway we sat there chatting away as you do and we saw some electo kids corss the street and just laughed at them
because they looked like something from the 80's and well 80's fashion stayed in the 80's for a reason losers looked so trashy.. so anyway adam went to ask them if they were going to the bullet gig and they said yes so he laughed in there faces i dont think they had a clue why we were laughing maybe they hadnt seen thier reflection before they left the house.
We took random photos in the que. =]

 

So its been a little while.
i still cant get my head round this whole thing,there isnt a moment in the day i dont think about you.
if only you knew.
i am getting fed up of brisbane to be honest 
the place bores the shit out of me at the moment.
i think when ive been home im going to save to move to sydney
becci and jemma said they wanted to move there and well to be quite frank i think we'd have a bloody good laugh living together.

Sometimes i just wish id have told you i loved you so you knew.
then others well.. 

i bloody hope i can get spice girls tickets.
seeing them will be so amazing and everybody doing dances oh im so dressing up as geri again.
i want the platform union jack boots.
yep

so im home on my own for the weekend.
im starting to feel a bit lonely i guess being on my own makes you think more.
which doesnt help in a way.
i cant get him out of my mind right now.
i really miss him, i cant beleive how bad im falling to be honest.

ive been sat watching movies for the last few hours along with my christina tour dvd and watching that made so many emotions run through my body.
i really cant wait to see her in july.
its going to be the most incredible night, i'll probably cry if she sings beautiful.

im tryign to cut back on spending, me and mum are supposed to be goign to the hair expo in sydney next month lets hope i can afford it as ill be paying for my flights and the hotel cause mums pretty broke right now, but i just want to go back to sydney i love that place, its great, brisbanes a bit lame to be honest.
then again i suppose it wouldnt be so bad if i lived in the city it takes forver to get there on the train and the bus and well its so much fucking effort.
i just cant be bothered with it.

i really need to save to go back ive been thinking maybe its time to go back to see evreyone before i enter brokesville to study make up its goign to cost me so much money but i dont really care its what i want to do
and i really miss the brigade guys and i dont know how much longer i can hold out not seeing them, i need to go back anyway just to see and maybe appriciate here a bit more i know im only beginign to be okay with the fact of being here and i am making new friends and beginging to like it here which i feel some of my friends back home dont understand/find it hard to hear that im not so desperate to come back and i wont be back for a while.
almost like they dont want me to be happy here and want me to go back to england and be with them all the time.
i know that makes them sound selfish and mean but thats the way it comes across.
its wierd, i cant explain it obviously things wont be the same when i go back people change and ive changed and i think i will see some people for what they really are and probably wont be friends with people i was friends with before.
i think its time for me to rap this entry up
i mean its rather long
so that'll be all

i dont quite know what to write so im just going to see what comes out, its been a while and quite a bits happened sinse my last entry.
I wish i was still in sydney, the other weekend was so much fun , its miles better than brisbane but its not hard is it.
Brisbanes hardly pumping.
its so much busier in sydney which is the way i like it i cant beleive how much walking i did.
oh and baby it was really good to see you again and no youre not speacial in a retarded way youre just speacial to me i love you mr.
man i swear i fall for you just that little bit more evrytime i see you.
i didnt even want to come back to brisbane eh so depressing, oh i cant wait to see christina in july and i cant fucking beleiv ei have seats five rows from the stage how amazing is that honestly argh im so excited.
hmm i might go back to sydney maybe. i think i like sydney a bit too much.

i should start saving to go home really i mean its nearly been two years although im not in a big desperate rush to go back yet im starting to become okay with the fatc of being here and thats taken me a long time.

i thought i should make a entry as i havnt really posted one in a while and what better reason to post one than about the new found glory show.
well what can i say it was rather amazing.
I made my way to the city on my own.
eventually decided to que at about half five ish.
after walking round the city looking in shops and so on.
So i was standing in the que by myself for a while until i got talking to a few people in the que and ended up staying with them the rest of the night.
It made a nice change and im pretty sure they thought i was insane they wouldnt be far wrong.
So we got inside and managed to get a rather good view from the balcony as we were near the stairs/on the stairs near the stage.
Another day down opened and to be quite honest i thought they were a pile of crap.
the only think they had going for them was the hot guitarist other than that they were just plain shit.
Im still kind of pissed Paramore pulled out they were supposed to be playing but they pulled out and got replaced by The Audition.
Man they were a bit of a crack up i think the fact that the lead singer sounded so thick when he spoke made it even more amusing.
'This is the first time weve been in australia' then later saying 'this is the first time weve played this song in australia wait its our first time in australia so that would make sense'
Well done dim wit, i think he needed to go back to school
LOL and the fact he ripped his jeans on stage just made us all die with laughter it wasnt a small rip either we could see it from the balcony how on earth could he not notice that.
Thier music was okay i suppose but honestly ive heard better.
here are some pictures, i took of the audition

i thought id come make an entry as i havnt really made one in a little while.
its about time i did.
so happy birthday to me for monday i cant beleive im nineteen already and ive been away from england two years this year i honestly dont know where this last year has gone its just flown by.
last year as a teeenager, feels strange.
life farely good at the moment, im happy, nan and grandad arrived yesturday man it was such a long day after working at both places.
but its nice to have them here again.
im thinking about going away next month when they have been and gone go pay someone a visit.
it will be nice to see him again.
distance can be a bitch to be honest im suprised at myself really as im still rather interested haha.
i have such a bad track record with men, i get bored so easily and they bug me after a while but you know what he doesnt i love spending time with him and talking to him most days hes great he really is.

eee oh yeah i got the brigade album yesturday finally after so long of trying to get them to import it losers couldnt get it.
is this country that hard to send things to?
anyway my grandparents brought it over for me wahey.

im so over summer i cant wait for it to be winter again so i can wear all mu nice winter clothes well semi winter clothes haha thier not really winter clothes as i know them.
byron bay tomorrow i think wahoo.
im out. ive written enough i think and well i only really made this entry as i hadnt made one in a while.
xx

Oh Boy.
This weekend has been so good.
Got back from the Gold Coast today, man it was so good to see him again but now its over i feel a bit down *sighs*
I wish i knew when i was going to see him again.
Waking up next to him for the past two night was so nice.
Sitting on the beach together at five in the morning watching the sun come up ha and some random kiwi spoiling the moment by comming over.
Oh well it was still pretty speacial.

eek that club crawl last night was a bit mental mate.
five clubs five free drinks and one buy one get one free.
yeah mate was a bit fucking wrecked.
The competitions in The Rose and Crown was pretty amusing i swear alcohol+Men= They think thier gods gift to women on stage.
prancing about topless on stage i laughed so much
the bloke that sold us the tickets for the night was a bit of a sleaze making out with every drunk/paralectic girl he could find, what a tosser.
LOL Superman and Batman were so funny damn we should have got pictures with them.
it was funny though.

i want to see him again before he goes back to sydney on friday morning but i know that wont happen unless i get up super rediculously early and get the train then the bus but that would cost a fare bit.
hmm i wish i knew when i would get to see him again i only said goodbye to him this morning and i miss him already.
ha i wonder if he has a scratch or a mark from where i grabbed him last night.
Good luck explaining that one.
'Oh where did you get that alex? that wasnt there yesturday'
hahaha! id love to be there for that one.

Nine days to go!
Oh baby I cant wait to see you again!
Im falling fast he says the sweetest things and makes me smile.
Oh how i wish we lived much closer than we do, perhaps one day we will but until then we can send each other sweet messeges and see each other when we can.

Two more training shifts at the cafe place on monday and tuesday woo!
well kind of i suppose, people seem nice, i just hope i can keep two jobs going and handle it.
i should be able to i enjoy my current job even if the two side kicks make snide comments, thier still great i enjoy the bickereing acctually, ha fancy asking me if i have a boyfriend no panks youre not setting me up with steve it isnt going to happen hello steves a bit of a pervert to be honest 'kerry what size bra are you?'
'FUCK OFF STEVE'

Anyway who likes STUFF?
hahaha i still cant get over that its so lame but yet so funny and doesnt get old.
hmm we need to have another girly sleepover soon livvy and shanyn!
i love you two, youre fab-a-doozy

eeep nine days i see him and eight days until i go away.
ha perhaps ill go to the alex again this friday woo!
i suppose oh my i really will laugh if i see that guy there again hmm what to wear?
I'll figure it out.
x

I feel quite good today acctually
oh happy new year by the way.
Ive made well attempted to make new years resolutions none of them have been accomplished or attemtped to be acomplished yet
i'll try and start next week. haha she says.
eeep! going to the coast next month to surfers for a weekend
still need to drag someone with me though eeeeeee i get to see him <3
im excited i havnt seen him sinse august so it'll be great and i may go to see him in march i want to go mardi gras.
cor thatd be a bit good acctually.
Im quite glad im taking this year out to save a bit of money and just work, while looking into make up courses for next year and all possibilitys and what not.
Alot of the courses ive seen are in sydney cor id quite like to study there acctually.
oof!
Im excited about the girlie sleepover next week
that'll be great

going to see robbie williams tomorrow
im looking forward to it acctually yurgh!
it'll be good
i hope he sings angels.
deftones in febuary yes plz
cor!

oh oh and the pools finished wahooza i can go swimming
<3

hmm i feel pretty sad today he went away today and i wont be able to talk to him for a month :(
i think the part that makes me most sad is we were laughing and having a bit of a giggle but then he had to say goodbye and set off for his trip.
*sighs*
oh lets hope i see him in the new year.
Becci is back today so she'll keep me company
oh christmas soon i hate it it makes me sad and 100000x more homesick than i already am, christmas is supposed to be a family time but im over a million miles away from all my family apart from mum + dad but they are happier here
man i hate being torn between two contries there are good things here and i have some really good friends its just i miss everyone back home
and christmas makes me think about it more.
i pray to god fightstar come back here because when i saw them in march my god id never been so happy it was the happiest day ive spent here and my friends were just amazed at how happy i was.
oh i want to be THAT happy again.

hmm i'll see him in the new year lets hope i get close to being THAT happy when i see him, maybe.
*sighs*
i dont know what to say anymore i guess its one of those days and i dont mean a good day.
thats all i think i should close this entry now
bye x

hurray im nearly finished tafe
aha so over it
at least then i can work alot and save lots of money :)
I got a new lip ring today rather kool blaitenly.

meh looks like i wont be going to sydney for a while you know its nice of him to forget to tell me he's going away i swear men are completely incompetant and dont tell you jack shit!
they expect you to know everything idiots
& you know i dont appriciate them treating my best friends like shit either
i wish i was there to comfort her more
:(

meh!
oh well at least i dont have to spend money on going
and i will have more money when i need it
perhaps.
:)

Hmm i should go yell at someone in hmv or skinnys to order me the brigade album
damnit i want it NOW!

Pretty fucking glad the whole course is nearly finished
im so over everything
still trying to figure out what i want to do next year though
maybe i'll work full time and just save to travel

im totally in love with the song BubbleWrap from McFly's new album motion in the ocean.
Its amazing and danny's voice is enough to send anyone into spazz mode
if it doesnt your retarded.
end of yo!

Sydney soon
hopefully.
i miss him and it will be good to see him again
cor piss taking sessions are a bit too funny when were together
aha
lets hope hes a good boy.
as if that'll happen

im out
laterz
x

i know i really need to save money to go home
but i cant see that happening just yet
ive been thinking about going away for a weekend when i finish my course next month.
Also i want to go away sometime in the summer
even if it isnt that far and just to the coast
it would be nice to get away.
another thing i want to go to big day out but i dont
i want to go cause itd be good and a laugh but i dont really want to spend money on it i spent quite a bit yesturday on a pretty dress and getting my lip pierced.
hmm i dont know.
but i know when i finish college i can work alot more so it will be easier to save money
hopefully.

i do love this man hes amazing you know

wouldnt you agree?

You know this band owns your face





Charlie Simpson yes please!

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